penderitaan yang tiada hentinya...SUBHANALLAH

each day, to read and see,
damages ISRAEL had done..is heartbreaking.
i once asked mr hubby, do we have backup there,for our brothers and sisters?
quietly, he shook his head and say nothing(.....................)

ya allah, berikanlah kami kesabaran dan teguhkanlah pendirian kami, serta bantulah kami untuk mengalahkan orang-orang kafir.

amat menyedihkan :(

bila ibu boleh memilih

***Ya Allah, berikanlah aku kekuatan,kesabaran demi menghadapi kesukaran di tahun hadapan, yang pastinya ku tahu penuh dengan dugaan, demi menguji keimanan kami pada Mu. Ku pohon kehidupan yang penuh keberkatan rezeki yang halal , demi suami, anakku, dan keluargaku...***

Anakku,
Bila ibu boleh memilih
Apakah ibu berbadan langsing atau berbadan besar kerana mengandungmu
Maka ibu akan memilih mengandungmu
Kerana dalam mengandungmu ibu merasakan keajaiban dan kebesaran Allah

Sembilan bulan nak, engkau hidup di perut ibu
Engkau ikut kemanapun ibu pergi
Engkau ikut merasakan ketika jantung ibu berdetak kerana kebahagiaan
Engkau menendang rahim ibu ketika engkau merasa tidak nyaman,
kerana ibu kecewa dan berurai air mata

Anakku,
Bila ibu boleh memilih apakah ibu harus operasi caesar,
atau ibu harus berjuang melahirkanmu
Maka ibu memilih berjuang melahirkanmu
Kerana menunggu dari jam ke jam, minit ke minit kelahiranmu
Adalah seperti menunggu antrian memasuki salah satu pintu syurga
Kerana kedahsyatan perjuanganmu untuk mencari jalan keluar ke dunia
Sangat ibu rasakan
Dan saat itulah kebesaran Allah menyelimuti kita berdua
Malaikat tersenyum diantara peluh dan erangan rasa sakit ,
Yang tak pernah bisa ibu ceritakan kepada siapa pun

Dan ketika engkau hadir, tangismu memecah dunia
Saat itulah… saat paling membahagiakan
Segala sakit & derita sirna melihat dirimu yang merah,
Mendengarkan ayahmu mengumandangkan azan,
Kalimat syahadat kebesaran Allah dan penetapan hati tentang
junjungan kita Rasulullah di telinga mungilmu

Anakku,
Bila ibu boleh memilih apakah ibu berdada indah, atau harus bangun
tengah malam untuk menyusuimu,
maka ibu memilih menyusuimu,
Kerana dengan menyusuimu ibu telah membekali hidupmu dengan
titisan² dan tegukan² yang sangat berharga
Merasakan kehangatan bibir dan badanmu didada ibu dalam kantuk ibu,
Adalah sebuah rasa luar biasa yang orang lain tidak bisa rasakan

Tetapi anakku
Hidup memang pilihan
Jika dengan pilihan ibu , engkau merasa sepi dan merana
Maka maafkanlah nak
Maafkan ibu….Maafkan ibu
Percayalah nak, ibu sedang menyempurnakan puzzle kehidupan kita ,
agar tidak ada satu kepingpun bahagian puzzle kehidupan kita yang hilang
Percayalah nak
Sepi dan ranamu adalah sebahagian duka ibu
Percayalah nak
Engkau adalah selalu menjadi belahan nyawa ibu




**Puisi Hati Ratih Sanggarwati**

MY LIL AYDAN IS ONE

Ibu doakan kehidupan yang terbaik untukmu. Jadilah anak yang soleh,penyabar, berilmu dan beramal.

"Ya Tuhanku, jadikanlah aku dan anak cucuku orang-orang yangmengerjakan solat.
Ya Tuhan kami,perkenankanlah doa kami.
Ya Tuhanku,ampunkanlah aku dan kedua ibubapaku dan sekalian orang-orang mukmin pada hari hisab nanti."

I still remembered every vivid detail for 5^th and 6^th Dec 2007.
Nervous, uptight, terrified…all in my medulla oblongata.
5^th Dec 2007, I still not in my 40^th weeks. Still should be 3 times more checkups with dr raja junainah @columbia asia puchong.
Surprisingly, after the terror of “diameter game”, she announced

“BESOK BERANAK YE ELIZA, BABY YOU DAH KEBAWAH SANGAT,
PELVIS ALREADY SOFTEN, YOU ALREADY AT 2CM..WE INDUCE TOMORROW OK?”

Short and sharp, same as it goes into my lung, heart, and lastly brain! Doctor ni saspen je.

Few minutes after, called hubbydarling, shaken by the news, and demand him come home to KL el pronto as fast as he can.
Lucky me, he arrived late evening together with importanto people: my parent in law from Ipoh (MIL looked so worry that day – little that I know, she ought to be!!!)

6^th Dec 2007, early morning @8am hubby and PIL escorted me to the hospital.
Funny how my own parent can be so cool and “TAKPE, KAK LEHA AND ABANG YAHYA PI DULU DENGAN ELLY,KAMI DATANG SEKEJAP LAGI”..knowing them, bukan dorang tak risau, but they have no idea what will happen – little that they know, they should!!!

After checking in, getting comfy in a single luxury room with plasma TV, chatting cheerfully with hubby and PIL, enjoying mihun ma’s cooking slow digesting,Dr raja with her little hand and giant glove came, poked and

“ OKEH!DAH 3CM, NURSE SIAPKAN PN ELIZA TO LABOR ROOM, WE START INDUCE @11AM.

In labor room (yang amat sejuk), hubby sat far away since nurse kept coming in and out repeatedly, installing CTG and making me cozy. (Huh!!as if).
Not even 30 minutes, there was few major contraction with no pushing effect (kan laboring is hardwork of pushing what,I tak sempat merasa huhu.. )
With no basic in medic, I can scent something was wrong when baby’s heartbeat is slowing down, dropped and dropped..no more big noisy sound like you’re super full and put microphone inside my belly! Gegrrrrrrrrrrrrrr……gegggrrrrrrrrr….

NURSE: PANGGIL DR RAJA, CEPAT2 CEPAT! HEARTBEAT BABY DROP! CEPAT!

I’m in middling pain, and partial deaf, many tks to nurses for do-not-let-she-know tone of voice.
Best part, DR RAJA RAN FROM HER ROOM TO MY LABOR ROOM. (nasib ada lift)
Baby’s heartbeat dropped to low 60, instead of normal 180.
Dr Raja said baby seemed to choke for every each contraction and she asked hubby (he never existed in my reality that time, no where to be found in my recall.See how baby make me forget you, sorrryyyyyyy darling)

SHE HAS TO GO FOR C-SECT, baby is …………!

(selebihnya aku dah jadi pekak sebab risau, or maybe I don’t want to hear)
Alarmed, disturbed, puzzled, terrified, sign papers, say sorry, cry cry a lot, im to OT.
Outside my parent, sis, PIL, and hubby, ALL LOOKED SERIOUSLY WORRIED!

Itu Left(B) Yahaya pun looked terrified!
Emergency c-sect maaaa……

Throughout surgery, wirid and takbir followed me non stop.
Since half numb, I can felt dr raja pushing my huge belly to position out the baby.
The moment he lifted from my womb, I can feel and heard
cough..cough..ehek ehek …Uwaaaaaaaa uwaaaaaaaaaaa…..

OT in 1230pm, baby aydan born at 1243pm. ALHAMDULLILAH.TQ ALLAH
There you go boy, I kissed him and confirmed he is a boy.
With loud crying voice and open mouth, you were taken for cleaning up and to be azan by ayah few moments later. I cried and we cried, we live happily ever after.

No..no…that was not the story, after you were taken out, you left ibu with those doctors nurses to continue my stitches of your way out. Ibu started mild shivering and by the time doctors done, it was MOST AWFUL shivering case EVER due to ibu’s body effect to local anesthetic.(half body waist down)
Even under ‘warmer’, they covered me with 5 blankets and ibu still shaken like walking naked in Antartic below -0 degrees!

Next thing I know, I’m on my way to my room, with company of TV plasma which I do not have time to watch. shhiisshhhh!!the first person I saw is hubbydarling, which from distant I can see tears dripping (in macho manner hihi!) and went inside, alone , and all he could say :

TQ SAYANG, WHAT YOU DID JUST NOW IS EVERYTHING. I AM SO HAPPY. Tq for giving me aydan, he cried as loud as he can when we met.I'm sorry since you have to bear the pain.

Kisses muahhh muahhsss all over my face (where else?)
Hubbydarling has recited azan loudly (nak tengok sapa kuat sore nih), aydan diamm senyap.
I still shivered, but tq Allah for giving me the easiest labor for me.(I know it has been written..)

Aydan is on the way to our room for his first breastfeed
Aydan in, ibu’s out (of the way) since all attention focused to you.
Snap snap pictures and videos, all starts well, ends well!

Three person with red eye, my hubby, my mum and my MIL…
Yehhh, I know….i know the feeling. We have waited for so long..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYDAN!
we love you to the very bit muuuuahhhhhhssssssssss.

p/s: b,seriously,pain is nothing..compared him as my gift from you to me..thank you sayang.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR ABD RAHIM ALI - 2nd December

Bila tengok dia, memang tak sangka, lagi sikit tahun untuk menjadi 60’s.
Rambut banyak putih-itu tanda banyak berfikir,
kulit pun sudah kedut -itu tanda wisdom of youth,
mata pun spec sederhana tebal – itu tanda pandai jaga tu,banyak baca quran
badan sederhana kurus tidak,gemuk jauh sekali,bmi aje tersasar –
itu tanda pandai membahagikan masa antara urusan akhirat dan dunia
cakap banyak berlapik – itu tanda mahu menjaga hati,
berbaju pun suka warna terang – itu tanda nak bagi nampak muda


bila aku 7 tahun, aku ingat lagi nampak dia besar,tinggi,handsome sebab orang dulu berjanggut berjambang berbagai.aku kena dongak sebab dia tinggi sangat.

bila aku 10 tahun, darjah 4, aku nampak dia segak tak kisah apapun dia pakai.dulu dia kerja pengurus, smart memanjang dengan baju lengan panjang bila ke ofis. Duduk dengannya di KL pun best sebab asyik berjalan kesana sini.

bila aku 15 tahun, Form 3, aku nampak dia garang. Sebahagiannya sebab aku degil, banyak rebel secara diam, nakal tak ingat! Asal tak puashati buat perangai.Sampai nak minta maaf pada ibu pun dia yang memujuk.aku masih budak, keras hati macam konkrit.sekali pikir, macam jiwa lelaki.

bila aku 20 tahun, aku dan dia beza berapa inci saja.aku nampak dia cooling,more to caring, banyak slow talking,banyak nasihat.SATU yang paling aku ingat sampai mati, women are born losers.(tak merujuk mana2 yang berkenaan, ini aku sendiri akui walaupun korang rasa tak betul.tapi ingat, perempuan mempunyai banyak ruang untuk ke syurga,kita ada suami,ibubapa,abang,pak sedara yang membimbing dan melindungi). Bila hati gatal bercinta(part ni ibu ku cukup anti- kes selongkor bilik cari bukti ni hehe), mesti utamakan sifat2 seperti dia. Kononnya yang pandai menjaga keluarga dan paling utama mampu membuatkan aku ketawa.

bila aku 25 tahun, aku tengok jatuh bangun hidupnya. Seperti roda, diatas dan dipenyek.Biarpun tak faham, tapi jiwa aku mengerti, tapi buat2 tak paham. Hidup mesti senang….biarpun ku tak mampu menolong, ku doakan yang terbaik dan termudah untuk kehidupannya.dia tetap tabah, katanya dia tiada siapa lagi melainkan kami.malah ada lawak-lawak yang tetap ku kenang. Kerja keras, mesti makan kenyang..bila lapar lambat mkn, ANGRY WHEN HUNGRY- tengah lapar memang ayatnya pedas macam cilipadi.demi kami, kehendak ditunaikan sedaya upaya. Kata orang, benar anak sukar memahami beban hidup ketua keluarga. Kalau aku lelaki, aku TIDAK MAMPU dari semua segi jika ditempat dia. Ku ulangi, TIDAK MAMPU!

Bila aku nearly 30’s,baru aku paham kitarannya.
Tiada yang senang melainkan datangnya susah, tiada yang baru jika lama tak wujud.
Aku faham betapa sayangnya aku pada ayah pun tak dapat kembalikan mudanya.
Betapa menyesalnya aku pada ayah pun tak dapat kembalikan masa lalu.
Betapa beharganya masa kini dengannya, penuh dengan doa kesyukuran dan permohon dari Allah S.W.T supaya dia hidup dalam kegembiraan dan kesihatan yang paling paling terbaik. Jika diberi peluang kembali.aku tidak mahu mensia-siakan jasa dia pada kami.

DIA adalah AYAHKU, PEMBERI SEMANGATKU, PENGAJAR ERTI KEHIDUPAN KU, dan insyaallah sebagai satu JAMINANKU ke syurga-------mr. abd rahim bin md. ali

HAPPY 5*TH BIRTHDAY AYAH, you’re everything that I wish to be.
---- BERJIWA KENTAL & TABAH BILA MENGHADAPI KESUSAHAN----

Semoga Allah memberkati hidupmu dunia akhirat, diberi kesihatan yang paling baik, ketenangan jiwa dan semoga Allah menghadiahkan syurga Jannah bagimu atas semua pengorbanan, penatlelah, doa2 mu, bimbinganmu pada kami.

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warga emas yang celik IT, kelassssss...hehe

duduk mesti ada style, takde la kematu mengadap internet


bang, kena cepat makan nih..sedap nih..leh order lain nih..biar je cucu tu dengan ibu dia..

selamat hari raya aydan -part 1

(Rupa-rupanya ada yang menjadi pembaca senyap eeeeee..)
Mekasih, welcome to my humble blog.
A place to be a jabber, rumble with nonsense (for you) but the whole lot to me.
Nothing bombastic, just a little daily notes for me, my hubby and my aydan to get through the day (to be honest, it was me the desperate one that trapped in our little sewa house-macam tak bersyukur la pulak!), to share some stories, if and if I feel like it and aydan is behaving the finest.

Lamanya tak menjadi blogger yang aktif5 ni. Tengok blogger lain punya banyak cerita sampaikan juling mata membaca.
Let see what do I miss?

1. Entry RAYA
(the most importanto since aydan’s 1st baju melayu captured beautifully by me- masuk bakul angkat sendiri)
2. Entry NAK PINDAH
3. Entry belated birthdays for few friends
4. Entry pre-bday aydan

Issshhh, I do not want to list all, since later someone will haunt me to finish up in one day. No, no…no….. (the fact is I do love some of you keep coming back for stories hihi).

1 Syawal 1429, we celebrated RAYA AIDILFITRI in Sungkai,perak.
Our PIL came from Ipoh, but Sungkai is their kampong (belah my MIL).
A small kampung, but amusingly with handful of with paklong sana sini, maklang situ sini, pakcik situ sini, and makcik situ sini.
Reason being said like that - I really cannot remember which are which families, let alone remembering their title.
Sades betul menantu Yahaya/Leha ni.
Friendly as they were, me they refer as –
“ooo…dah dapat anak si sapik ni” - sapik ni bapak aydan
(imagine this sentence being said times with 20 families).
Senyum aje la bang oiyyy!
Raya tahun ini ada aydan. Raya tahun lepas aydan dalam perut 8 bulan.
Memang best, a kind of feeling that you want to be remembered before he knows how to meronda kampung collect duit raya.
Di pagi hari raya, penuh dengan agenda nak pakaikan anak baju raya cepat2 sebelum dia boring tak berbaju, nak suapkan lemang ketupat sikit2 bagi dia merasa, nak amik gambar sebelum semua orang mukanya berminyak,nanti tengahari sibuk nak tengok tv cerita ratatouiile pulak. Agak bagus program cartoon raya-raya nih!

Pagi raya, i missed solat sunat raya, nobody to look after aydan lagipun.
I still remember i'm not in the mood to talk. I want my mum actually.
(macam budak kecik, dah besar gajah still miss my mum)
I miss her nasi dagang, kuih raya biskut senyum, her kuah kacang, her chatty mouth,everything that im not in Puchong....

Only little one understood my feeling.
He smile, the smile of angel
He smell, the smell of heaven.

but I managed to get along well.kang dapat status sombong! Naya!!


handsome pose#1


handsome pose #2 -----u look like anak patung berbaju melayu :)


with atok and opah


inilah seciput sebahagian yang memenuhi ruang raya


SETAHUN HANYA SEKALI

Aydan is behaving like super-tiptop angelic little one!!!!!!!
Kul 10 mahu tidur,
Kul 1 mahu tidur,
Kul 5 mahu tidur, tapi tak boleh tido.
A bit of tantrum, crawling back and forth, atok cradled in and out , still orang respek alalalala baiknya anak elly, tak ada la meragam SANGAT..(nak gelak ke nak marah ni)



Kenapa rasa2 tak boleh tido :
MY BLOOD IS RUNNING IN HIS, BLOOD OF KK.
Cuba teka? Sampai besok pun kalian belum tentu jawapannya.
(Ssshhhhhhh! keluarga kepochi – dengan budak2 yang ramai beraya dan dapat duit raya, dengan bunyi mercun, dengan bunyi orang gelak gumbira didapur dan ruang tamu, dengan bunyi tv yang menayangkan cerita2 seksi di hari raya, dengan bunyi sudu garfu makan mee rebus, dengan bunyi mat rempit kampong beraya dirumah aweks)…
macammana aydan mahu tidur ibu??? Aydan nk tengok semua itu.

After too many ketupat and rendang(in hubby's tummy la, i told you i miss my mum's), we went back to Ipoh by late noon. Aydan slept the entire journey and up at 5a.m.

CAK!!!SELAMAT HARI RAYA IBU!

byeeeeeeeeee.. (part 2 menyusul)

p/s : do u agree...raya dimana-manapun tak sebest macam raya dekat umah mak bapak kite kan?? sob..sob.......

oohhhh ahhhhhh of friendship dolly

Dua hari lalu, puan roxy meng-sms menyuruh buka email secepat mungkin (ape hal ntah, tapi dah sms tu gaya macam importanto saja!)
Bila dah dibuka email nya ........oooooo..ahhhhh..

Saya bukan orang yang kreatif, bila tengok benda2 yang memerlukan kekreatifan ni memang menTAKSUBKAN!
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FUN BUT CHALLENGING

Dearest Aydan,my lil angel busuk masyam super fine-hair cheeky cunning boy..
Since you turned 9 month today, Happy Happy dear darling!
U may not understand yet, but ibu am really super duper excited seeing you growing up 24/7 front of my eyes.

you makan with such a big appetite, sweet potato and pumpkin is your feveret.comot is your name bila makan, and ibu have to keep singing the whole time u eating (since my singing make him sit quietly and finish the whole bowl)


you tidur with such a grace, mulut nganga and tangan tu, tangan!! macam ade orang itu saja tidur.(without the hand gesture laa)


you main with such a spirit,dapat A buang B,dpt balik B,buang C (boring ibu asyik kutip2your toys around the house)


you gelak with such an innocent angel-like, 2 low,4 tops and another 2 is showing. but why you only bite me? whyyy? why not others too?so they can also share the 'love' huhuhu.


you smell with a scent of heaven, so best, so best and so best (specially your mouth)..but not when you uk uk, i want to vomit,biarla 9 bulan pun umurmu!


you mandi with such an attitude, nak berdiri although you not that strong yet.nak bebaring bila gosok gigi,nak menonggeng bila sabun...kes mahu kutip buih2 sabun.

you nangis with all out, top of the lung, shrieking siren-like to alert whole taman people. anything that is not up to your standard, you will scream but balik kampung you're the best! at your best behaviour.so others won't believe ibu.if only i remember to tape everytime you cry as a proof.


you stand tall, trying to avoid your bum bumming my head, while your head avoiding dinding, i know you can do it with s-t-y-l-e, but please be a little patience to try bertatih. you not even 1 yet!


busuk ibu, hope you still eat,sleep,play,laugh,smell,bath,stand like these forever, since ibu do not want this memories to be fade away..impossible aittt??? sob sob...

but can you change your shrieking siren-like? ibu also got temper to control u know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

undi dan terus mengundi

as at today,now, 4424 and still counting. undi terus mengundi!

anak ayah

gelak besar dengan ayah
sedapnya tangan ayah


Aydan with ayah.
Ayah selalu tanya, bila nak besar nih..bila nih..bleh tolong ayah basuh kete,kemas rumah,garu bila gatal,pijak blakang,pi amik handphone,cabut rumput dan banyak lagi.
berhenti jap, kita suruh ibu amik gambar
Ayah selalu tanya, aydan nak makan apa arini,bleh soh ibu masakkan (amboiiii)
Ayah selalu tanya (lebih kepada menyuruh) KOMANDO!!! (paham? dia suruh anak dia jadi komando)
Ayah selalu tanya, aydan tido ke? hampeh aydan memang kalu ibu tiada sebelah tak bleh tido lena!
Ayah selalu tanya, kenapa nangis ni? nak ibu dukung ke? nak ibu ke?
ayah layan aydan baring2
Last, ayah selalu tanya, aydan uk2 ek? tapi yang kena basuhnya ibu gak.
Aydan, Aydan, such a baby....
Ayah tanya je, yang kena buat semua itu IBU jugak.
HAMPEHHHH!
ibu kan suruh duduk diam,gambar asyik blur!!

hari mengukus

Baru 2 hari lepas tengok pn diyaluna merebus bubur untuk iki yang membesar sihat bagai johan. bagus tul cik puan itu sungguh rajin walaupun sibuk membanting tulang di depan pc opis :)

Semalam turn saya buka freezer.GULP! junior's food tinggal 1 mangkuk epal sahaja dan sedikit tomato. ALA!!! turn saya pulak nak kena mengukus. Last night, buat muka kesian minta hubby bawa ke Carrefour BP. Nasib sanggup, buatnya dia loyar buruk nape last minute baru check, saya dah ada jawapan.err.sibuk tengok dvd (been watching 1 box of FRIENDS complete season of 10 years!I guess la..from the old plait skirt and high turtleneck to heterosexual image and more alluring hair style. Best tul tak pakai tudung bleh buat rambut cenggini cenggitu.berangan color rambut,curl,ehh, dah lari topik??)
muka boring ibu layan sayur than him

tengah sibuk2 pilih sayur, ada akak ikan (yang department potong-potong ikan) approach.
akak ikan : ala comeii nye anak kamu ni, laki ke pompuan?
saya : (dengan menyengih), laki kak.
ai : macam anak patung orang putih kepala botak..yang pertama ke?
saya : baru satu kak.(tapi rasa macam panas aje, nak muji ke nak ngata anak aku botak ni??)
ai : kalu gitu pasni branak ramai..sembilan ke!akak ada 10
saya : (sengih) satu ni pun saya rasa macam sepuluh.
ai : kamu ni! biar ramai, nanti dah besor dia tinggalnye kamu
saya : Insyaallah kak.

Dan hubby pun panggil. Saya pun beredar after say bye-bye to akak ikan.Dalam Q nak bayar, terpikir:
1. Boleh ke aku beranak sampai 9? Boleh ke aku jaga? Cukup ke nak bagi makan pakai belajar?
2. Nape rambut aydan ni tumbuh malu-malu gitu. Asyik orang dok komen aje.
3. Ke dok 'terkenan' patung mat saleh PPUM masa pi antenatal class?
4. Apesal anak aku ni pi mana-mana mesti orang dok puja-puji? Allah nak duga aku ke sebab everytime orang tegur mesti rasa bangga satu macam.
5. Betul ke nanti anak aku besor nanti tinggalkan aku? Uwaaaaa....Realiti sungguh!

Sedar2 dah kat kereta, hubby suruh angkat junior masuk keta. Tak puas ati tul dengan akak tu, sebab me'remind' kan saya realiti kehidupan.Anak tu baru 7 bulan!!Lain kali pikirla pasal ni.So sekarang, hari ini, saya pun sibuk ngukus his favourites. Sambil tu pen-in this entry sebab junior tidur.Adakentang,brokoli,tomato,carrot,labu,epal,pear! Banyaknya stok! I prefer to do it in bulk, blender, simpan dalam freezer. That way, jimat masa(boleh tengok dvd lagi :)He likes to eat homemade food. Satu mangkuk penuh pun abis. Ingat nak buat macam pn diyaluna, tapi faktor M! sebab itu nak kena buat cikit2. Ni nak tabik spring kat dia, busy pun sanggup buat. Toing toing!sibuk nak amik gambar gak

While ibu sibuk, aydan in his buai-land. Dah sebulan tak nak tidur buai, hari ni mood dia ok plak. Cam bodekk je tahu ibu preparing your food ek?

welcome JULY and birthday month for him

He has(FINALLY)reached the number of three zero. im so proud of u la hubby. err, when you are 40, junior baru 10, you are 50, junior baru 20. Are you ready?
KAPTEN MOHAMMAD SYAFFIK YAHAYA - 13 years he never had a chance to celebrate with his family. Sengaja kali ini ambil cuti untuk diluangkan hari bersejarah dengan kluarga kami di Ipoh. We were there for 1 week since last balik when im 7 month pregnant. my MIL sampai demam woo tak jumpa kitaorang..err..ke tak jumpa anak dia.To his surprise, ayong(my SIL) bought a strawberry cake for him. Yang ada pun cuma anak2 ayong, mak, abah, me & aydan. Such a small celebration for a big man!! shian dia...alala cayang bucuk darling. What matter is we're here for you! Malu-malu plak dia potong kek. Ala cik abang, sapapun tahu, camera pun tak charge tak ade bukti pun potong kek :)

kakak (syakirah anak ayong): makngah, pakngah tak ade lilin nk blow ke?
me : err, pakngah dah tua nanti kek tu tak muat nak letak 30candlesss
kakak : abis tu dia nak tiup ape?
me : ala, nanti kite kasik pakngah tiup belon for all of you!
kakak : tapi belon tak ada, mak tak beli sebab pakngah dah besar mesti tak suka tiup belon

aduh budak skang, lagi ku jawap lagi dia tanya.

me : kakak jom amik gambar, jom!

uishh,ajak amik gambar trus laju tak tanya apa.hehe, selamat aku nak menjawap soalan2 bernas. Budak2 skang ni bak kata pn roxychicks terlebih DHA!

Hubby happy birthday to you. May Allah bless your life and showered you with goodness that the world and akhirat could offer. Wish you the happiness in life and good and halal wealth.I love you, with heart & soul. This JULY is yours, everyday is your birthday.(hope you like it, im your wife, so sukahati me nak declare everyday is your day :)

MY JULY DARLING :fun to be with,secretive,difficult to fathom and to be understood,quiet unless excited or tensed,takes pride in 1self,has reputation,easily consoled,honest,concern about people's feeling,tactful,friendly,approachable,very emotional,temperamental and unpredictable,moody and easily hurt,witty and sparky,sentimental,not revengeful,forgiving but never forgets,dislike nonsensical and unnecessary things,guides others physically and mentally,sensitive and forms impressions carefully,caring and loving,treats others equally,strong sense of sympathy,wary and sharp,judge people through observations,hardworking,no difficulties in studying,loves to be alone,always brood about the past and the old friends,likes to be quiet,homely person,waits for friends,never look for friends,not aggressive unless provoked,prone to having stomach and dieting problems,loves to be loved,easily hurt but takes long to recover,overly concerned,puts in effort in work

Long become short - You are friendly, humorous and full of energy. You are open-minded and do not care for minor details. Your weak point is your hot temper.

It's maybe another birthday for you,that you plan to pass in pleasure,but to me it means another chance,to love you more to love you greater..happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to hubby, happy birthday to you!

p/s : It's your birth month. Spend it as uniquely as you are yourself!!hopes this make your special day more so! muuuuahhhhsssssssss xoxo.

from 2.58 to 6.50 on his 7 month

In a blink, Ahmad Aydan Syaza is turning 7 month in 3 days. Cepatnya anak ibu membesar,depan mata 24 jam / 7 days non stop! Starting from 2.58 kg to 6.5 kg (he's hard to put on weight, this worries me huhu). Seeing you growing to be seriously cute pre-todds, better ibu 'pen in' some of your favorites and masters:
* you discover how to crawl 2 days ago..Congrats!- on bed much faster even ibu will shriek!BAHAYA2!
* you started to jump when ayah balik kerja with 'yah..yah..ahhh'(perasan mcm sebut ayah aje)
* you turn your head speedily when ibu/ayah call
* your milk time turning into fun time, baru 2-3 minit dah senyum senyum tak nak
* you can sit in baby's chair with help of bantal (see how small you are)
* you hide you leg when stepping into walker (pandai macam nak main nyorok-nyorok kaki, lepas tu gelak sendiri)
* you can smile widely when ibu show pictures of us
* you want more time with ayah, you want to be hold by him, even sleep hugging ayah
* you very 'gelojoh' when you see ibu preparing for food
* you can fall back asleep without any help from boobie
* you will 'tepuk' bahu ibu when you want milk (lovely signal, ibu like it!)
* you will pull your ears & bite your fingers when we pay no attention to
* you also want to eat while we eat
* you open your mouth so big every time handphone is ringing* you like to 'tepuk' meja noisily to draw others attention (kes dine out)
* you love it when ibu kiss your mouth
* you like to eat veges, be it brocolli, carrot, spinach....listing goes on and on
* you like to pinch ayah on the neck, ibu on the boobie(sakit tau anak!)
* you sometimes gaze at ibu for few second without blinking (what are you thinking ibu would like to know)
* you know how to be cheeky when ibu's temper flying up!* you don't like your 'hingus' to be wipe off, u love it flowing freely into your mouth(eeisshhhh!!gulp!!)

Jadi.. anak,membesarlah dengan penuh kasih sayang kerana 7 tahun pertama adalah masa untuk kita bergurau. 7 tahun seterusnya adalah masa untuk ibu mengajar erti kehidupan dan 7 tahun seterusnya selepas itu terpulang padamu atas didikan ibu dan ayah. Semoga menjadi anak yang soleh, pembimbing, penyabar,berilmu, beramal,murah rezeki dan bertanggungjawab. Ceriakanlah hidup kami permata hati sayang ayahibu. With your presence, our life is becoming half complete!(half lagi kena paham sendiri)

Bila besar, dah pandai baca boleh baca blog ibu. tapi jangan la marah ibu cerita pasal you!
You still macho even ingus meleleh ;p

and hari ini dalam sejarah, aydan jatuh katil..alalalala anak ayahibu ni kesian.ayah kata anak laki strong! err, jangan tanya macammana dia bleh jatuh!

kenapa mengikut perasaan?

seringkali mood perempuan memang dikaitkan dengan emosi?
betul atau tidak?

the idea of loving and living (mkn,bgn,tido,jaga asyik dia sahaja dihati mcm ITM dihatiku) with unknown man is very interesting. Allah S.W.T telah menetapkan jodoh masing masing. Kalau tak sempat didunia, diakhirat adalah pasti. Jodoh kita sampai bila, bahagia atau tidak, pun telah dikatakan qada dan qadar. Macamana pula dengan pertengkaran (gaduh bunyinya kasar!)?Jodoh saya dengan orang yang garang(tapi bukan dengan saya, dengan kerjayanya), yang kelakar dan yang selalu memaafkan saya walaupun saya yang salah. 6 tahun bercinta, 3 tahun berkhawin always hubby throw away his ego and pujuk me. Sound perfect kan? tapi kenapa masih rasa nak marah-marah dan tak puas hati?

to think back, unfair to you darling hubby. Im mad because of you dukung junior tinggi dari kedudukan saya yang nak menyuap, im mad because saya tak pandai tolak stroller nak escalator, im mad because i persuade him to buy cheap car charger instead of RM79 punya(sudahnya after 1 hour he threw it out tepi hiway, kesian charger tu), im mad because dia tak beli burger eventhough senindiri cakap dah kenyang walau sendiri minta 5 minit sebelum ni.WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME??

im being thankful to Allah SWT for His gift to me.. A beloved darling husband whom love me unconditionally(walaupun bangun pagi lambat gosok gigi pun dia kiss muah muahss before off to work!). Yet, why, why and why, i love to cari pasal with him? why? period-nope! tension-tak kerja pun stress ke? pregnant-HUMMMM...-ve baru check pagi tadi. Apa darling husband cakap, semua tak kena. Apa dia buat, rasa macam nak buat balik aje apa dia buat.(sanggup basuhkan baju and jemur baju and kemas skit pun banyak komplen kan saya ni??)

yela, betul la tu. Perempuan memang beremosi. Tak payah tunggu period/pregnant/tensen/fatigue/seangkatan dengannya. Memang i do admit, sengaja cari pasal actually. benda kecik diperbesarkan, benda besar memang la nak kita besarkan ye tak? While we love perfection, men also need some space. Semua nak buat cara kita, cara dia pun ada betulnya(walaupun kadang kadang!).

therefore, hubbydarling, this is my open, humble, honest apology. I AM TRULY DEEPLY SORRY FOR EVERY SINGLE STUPID THING I SAID.

p/s : like i said...errr, sengaja cari pasal :)

that day, we went home : SEBUAH PENYESUAIAN

Sadis betul kalau dikenangkan.Tok dia sedih sesedih sedihnya.Junior macam paham, sepanjang perjalanan diam, tengok luar gelap (hari malam),sepanjang perjalanan tido. Ibu membisu, cuba memahami situasi yang ganjil dan menyayat hati. Hati ibu sungguh pilu, seperti anak, ibu juga bakal mencari esok.Berdua tiada diherankan, tapi bertiga sekarang lain feel nya. Apatah lagi cucu membesar didepan mata.

Esok hari, cucu menangis pilu. Mana tok yang selalu mendukung pagi2? mana maksu yang selalu boring bila dia mula menangis? Mana? Mana? Sepanjang hari menangis, dari pagi sampai malam.Letih menangis, tido, bangun menangis kembali.Baru dia paham, yang dia bukan lagi berada disana, dia disini. Apa kisah dengan tok nya? Mandi basah kah? Makan kenyang kah? Ibu sms pun tak sanggup dijawap. Tok, kami nak ucapkan berbanyak banyak rindu, dan terimakasih atas segala-galanya, terutama bagi pihak ibu. Jasa tok tak dapat kami balas. Ibu sayangggggggg tok muahhhssssssssssss!

Anak, nanti ibu bawa pulang kesana. Sedih macamanapun, tempat kita disisi ayah. Kena ingat ye.
Tok, jangan sedih lagi.kalau tok pilu, kami lagi sayu.
Tapi kami bakal pulang!!!

Reminiscing of 17 years of friendship – 5 May 1991

We started small at our lil SMSJ, we put thru a good result for SPM. We did part-time job at the same mall, We even headed for same university (lain branch aje).Pesal we did get married same day aje kan?We still contact each other, occasional small gathering, brunch, lunch date.
Still remember we have our own ‘buku conteng’? sebuah buku yang digunakan sepenuhnya utk melakarkan coretan hati, keinginan diri, dan cita2?(mana pi buku tu weii?).
Macam budak-budak yang berlagak dewasa aje that time.
But I do not wish that we can turn back time, since we are now able to bide our sorrows and gulp our dilemmas.Apapun, macam manapun,nothing has changed, except we all married.(err, and the pic speak itself hihi)
Thank you for being my true friend for the past 17 years, and more years to come.May Allah s.w.t. bless both of you, in health & good being.
She is Sharifah Muharra Diba & She is Intan Zulaikha
This is for you,
the one person I can let know my soul
Who can relate to me like no other
Who I can laugh with to no extents,
Who I can weep too when times are rough,
Who can help me with the troubles of my life.
Never have you turned your back on me
or told me I wasn’t good enough
or let me down
I don't think you know what that means to me
And I love you for listening
I look up too you because you are strong,
and thoughtful and beautiful.
And I hope you know that I am for all time here
To listen to your laugh and cry and lend a hand
In all the ways that I can
And I will try to be at least half the friend you are
I hope you know I would not be the person I am today, with out you.
HAPPY BELATED 17TH YEARS OF TRUE FRIENDSHIP.