hari mengukus

Baru 2 hari lepas tengok pn diyaluna merebus bubur untuk iki yang membesar sihat bagai johan. bagus tul cik puan itu sungguh rajin walaupun sibuk membanting tulang di depan pc opis :)

Semalam turn saya buka freezer.GULP! junior's food tinggal 1 mangkuk epal sahaja dan sedikit tomato. ALA!!! turn saya pulak nak kena mengukus. Last night, buat muka kesian minta hubby bawa ke Carrefour BP. Nasib sanggup, buatnya dia loyar buruk nape last minute baru check, saya dah ada jawapan.err.sibuk tengok dvd (been watching 1 box of FRIENDS complete season of 10 years!I guess la..from the old plait skirt and high turtleneck to heterosexual image and more alluring hair style. Best tul tak pakai tudung bleh buat rambut cenggini cenggitu.berangan color rambut,curl,ehh, dah lari topik??)
muka boring ibu layan sayur than him

tengah sibuk2 pilih sayur, ada akak ikan (yang department potong-potong ikan) approach.
akak ikan : ala comeii nye anak kamu ni, laki ke pompuan?
saya : (dengan menyengih), laki kak.
ai : macam anak patung orang putih kepala botak..yang pertama ke?
saya : baru satu kak.(tapi rasa macam panas aje, nak muji ke nak ngata anak aku botak ni??)
ai : kalu gitu pasni branak ramai..sembilan ke!akak ada 10
saya : (sengih) satu ni pun saya rasa macam sepuluh.
ai : kamu ni! biar ramai, nanti dah besor dia tinggalnye kamu
saya : Insyaallah kak.

Dan hubby pun panggil. Saya pun beredar after say bye-bye to akak ikan.Dalam Q nak bayar, terpikir:
1. Boleh ke aku beranak sampai 9? Boleh ke aku jaga? Cukup ke nak bagi makan pakai belajar?
2. Nape rambut aydan ni tumbuh malu-malu gitu. Asyik orang dok komen aje.
3. Ke dok 'terkenan' patung mat saleh PPUM masa pi antenatal class?
4. Apesal anak aku ni pi mana-mana mesti orang dok puja-puji? Allah nak duga aku ke sebab everytime orang tegur mesti rasa bangga satu macam.
5. Betul ke nanti anak aku besor nanti tinggalkan aku? Uwaaaaa....Realiti sungguh!

Sedar2 dah kat kereta, hubby suruh angkat junior masuk keta. Tak puas ati tul dengan akak tu, sebab me'remind' kan saya realiti kehidupan.Anak tu baru 7 bulan!!Lain kali pikirla pasal ni.So sekarang, hari ini, saya pun sibuk ngukus his favourites. Sambil tu pen-in this entry sebab junior tidur.Adakentang,brokoli,tomato,carrot,labu,epal,pear! Banyaknya stok! I prefer to do it in bulk, blender, simpan dalam freezer. That way, jimat masa(boleh tengok dvd lagi :)He likes to eat homemade food. Satu mangkuk penuh pun abis. Ingat nak buat macam pn diyaluna, tapi faktor M! sebab itu nak kena buat cikit2. Ni nak tabik spring kat dia, busy pun sanggup buat. Toing toing!sibuk nak amik gambar gak

While ibu sibuk, aydan in his buai-land. Dah sebulan tak nak tidur buai, hari ni mood dia ok plak. Cam bodekk je tahu ibu preparing your food ek?

welcome JULY and birthday month for him

He has(FINALLY)reached the number of three zero. im so proud of u la hubby. err, when you are 40, junior baru 10, you are 50, junior baru 20. Are you ready?
KAPTEN MOHAMMAD SYAFFIK YAHAYA - 13 years he never had a chance to celebrate with his family. Sengaja kali ini ambil cuti untuk diluangkan hari bersejarah dengan kluarga kami di Ipoh. We were there for 1 week since last balik when im 7 month pregnant. my MIL sampai demam woo tak jumpa kitaorang..err..ke tak jumpa anak dia.To his surprise, ayong(my SIL) bought a strawberry cake for him. Yang ada pun cuma anak2 ayong, mak, abah, me & aydan. Such a small celebration for a big man!! shian dia...alala cayang bucuk darling. What matter is we're here for you! Malu-malu plak dia potong kek. Ala cik abang, sapapun tahu, camera pun tak charge tak ade bukti pun potong kek :)

kakak (syakirah anak ayong): makngah, pakngah tak ade lilin nk blow ke?
me : err, pakngah dah tua nanti kek tu tak muat nak letak 30candlesss
kakak : abis tu dia nak tiup ape?
me : ala, nanti kite kasik pakngah tiup belon for all of you!
kakak : tapi belon tak ada, mak tak beli sebab pakngah dah besar mesti tak suka tiup belon

aduh budak skang, lagi ku jawap lagi dia tanya.

me : kakak jom amik gambar, jom!

uishh,ajak amik gambar trus laju tak tanya apa.hehe, selamat aku nak menjawap soalan2 bernas. Budak2 skang ni bak kata pn roxychicks terlebih DHA!

Hubby happy birthday to you. May Allah bless your life and showered you with goodness that the world and akhirat could offer. Wish you the happiness in life and good and halal wealth.I love you, with heart & soul. This JULY is yours, everyday is your birthday.(hope you like it, im your wife, so sukahati me nak declare everyday is your day :)

MY JULY DARLING :fun to be with,secretive,difficult to fathom and to be understood,quiet unless excited or tensed,takes pride in 1self,has reputation,easily consoled,honest,concern about people's feeling,tactful,friendly,approachable,very emotional,temperamental and unpredictable,moody and easily hurt,witty and sparky,sentimental,not revengeful,forgiving but never forgets,dislike nonsensical and unnecessary things,guides others physically and mentally,sensitive and forms impressions carefully,caring and loving,treats others equally,strong sense of sympathy,wary and sharp,judge people through observations,hardworking,no difficulties in studying,loves to be alone,always brood about the past and the old friends,likes to be quiet,homely person,waits for friends,never look for friends,not aggressive unless provoked,prone to having stomach and dieting problems,loves to be loved,easily hurt but takes long to recover,overly concerned,puts in effort in work

Long become short - You are friendly, humorous and full of energy. You are open-minded and do not care for minor details. Your weak point is your hot temper.

It's maybe another birthday for you,that you plan to pass in pleasure,but to me it means another chance,to love you more to love you greater..happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to hubby, happy birthday to you!

p/s : It's your birth month. Spend it as uniquely as you are yourself!!hopes this make your special day more so! muuuuahhhhsssssssss xoxo.

from 2.58 to 6.50 on his 7 month

In a blink, Ahmad Aydan Syaza is turning 7 month in 3 days. Cepatnya anak ibu membesar,depan mata 24 jam / 7 days non stop! Starting from 2.58 kg to 6.5 kg (he's hard to put on weight, this worries me huhu). Seeing you growing to be seriously cute pre-todds, better ibu 'pen in' some of your favorites and masters:
* you discover how to crawl 2 days ago..Congrats!- on bed much faster even ibu will shriek!BAHAYA2!
* you started to jump when ayah balik kerja with 'yah..yah..ahhh'(perasan mcm sebut ayah aje)
* you turn your head speedily when ibu/ayah call
* your milk time turning into fun time, baru 2-3 minit dah senyum senyum tak nak
* you can sit in baby's chair with help of bantal (see how small you are)
* you hide you leg when stepping into walker (pandai macam nak main nyorok-nyorok kaki, lepas tu gelak sendiri)
* you can smile widely when ibu show pictures of us
* you want more time with ayah, you want to be hold by him, even sleep hugging ayah
* you very 'gelojoh' when you see ibu preparing for food
* you can fall back asleep without any help from boobie
* you will 'tepuk' bahu ibu when you want milk (lovely signal, ibu like it!)
* you will pull your ears & bite your fingers when we pay no attention to
* you also want to eat while we eat
* you open your mouth so big every time handphone is ringing* you like to 'tepuk' meja noisily to draw others attention (kes dine out)
* you love it when ibu kiss your mouth
* you like to eat veges, be it brocolli, carrot, spinach....listing goes on and on
* you like to pinch ayah on the neck, ibu on the boobie(sakit tau anak!)
* you sometimes gaze at ibu for few second without blinking (what are you thinking ibu would like to know)
* you know how to be cheeky when ibu's temper flying up!* you don't like your 'hingus' to be wipe off, u love it flowing freely into your mouth(eeisshhhh!!gulp!!)

Jadi.. anak,membesarlah dengan penuh kasih sayang kerana 7 tahun pertama adalah masa untuk kita bergurau. 7 tahun seterusnya adalah masa untuk ibu mengajar erti kehidupan dan 7 tahun seterusnya selepas itu terpulang padamu atas didikan ibu dan ayah. Semoga menjadi anak yang soleh, pembimbing, penyabar,berilmu, beramal,murah rezeki dan bertanggungjawab. Ceriakanlah hidup kami permata hati sayang ayahibu. With your presence, our life is becoming half complete!(half lagi kena paham sendiri)

Bila besar, dah pandai baca boleh baca blog ibu. tapi jangan la marah ibu cerita pasal you!
You still macho even ingus meleleh ;p

and hari ini dalam sejarah, aydan jatuh katil..alalalala anak ayahibu ni kesian.ayah kata anak laki strong! err, jangan tanya macammana dia bleh jatuh!

kenapa mengikut perasaan?

seringkali mood perempuan memang dikaitkan dengan emosi?
betul atau tidak?

the idea of loving and living (mkn,bgn,tido,jaga asyik dia sahaja dihati mcm ITM dihatiku) with unknown man is very interesting. Allah S.W.T telah menetapkan jodoh masing masing. Kalau tak sempat didunia, diakhirat adalah pasti. Jodoh kita sampai bila, bahagia atau tidak, pun telah dikatakan qada dan qadar. Macamana pula dengan pertengkaran (gaduh bunyinya kasar!)?Jodoh saya dengan orang yang garang(tapi bukan dengan saya, dengan kerjayanya), yang kelakar dan yang selalu memaafkan saya walaupun saya yang salah. 6 tahun bercinta, 3 tahun berkhawin always hubby throw away his ego and pujuk me. Sound perfect kan? tapi kenapa masih rasa nak marah-marah dan tak puas hati?

to think back, unfair to you darling hubby. Im mad because of you dukung junior tinggi dari kedudukan saya yang nak menyuap, im mad because saya tak pandai tolak stroller nak escalator, im mad because i persuade him to buy cheap car charger instead of RM79 punya(sudahnya after 1 hour he threw it out tepi hiway, kesian charger tu), im mad because dia tak beli burger eventhough senindiri cakap dah kenyang walau sendiri minta 5 minit sebelum ni.WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME??

im being thankful to Allah SWT for His gift to me.. A beloved darling husband whom love me unconditionally(walaupun bangun pagi lambat gosok gigi pun dia kiss muah muahss before off to work!). Yet, why, why and why, i love to cari pasal with him? why? period-nope! tension-tak kerja pun stress ke? pregnant-HUMMMM...-ve baru check pagi tadi. Apa darling husband cakap, semua tak kena. Apa dia buat, rasa macam nak buat balik aje apa dia buat.(sanggup basuhkan baju and jemur baju and kemas skit pun banyak komplen kan saya ni??)

yela, betul la tu. Perempuan memang beremosi. Tak payah tunggu period/pregnant/tensen/fatigue/seangkatan dengannya. Memang i do admit, sengaja cari pasal actually. benda kecik diperbesarkan, benda besar memang la nak kita besarkan ye tak? While we love perfection, men also need some space. Semua nak buat cara kita, cara dia pun ada betulnya(walaupun kadang kadang!).

therefore, hubbydarling, this is my open, humble, honest apology. I AM TRULY DEEPLY SORRY FOR EVERY SINGLE STUPID THING I SAID.

p/s : like i said...errr, sengaja cari pasal :)

that day, we went home : SEBUAH PENYESUAIAN

Sadis betul kalau dikenangkan.Tok dia sedih sesedih sedihnya.Junior macam paham, sepanjang perjalanan diam, tengok luar gelap (hari malam),sepanjang perjalanan tido. Ibu membisu, cuba memahami situasi yang ganjil dan menyayat hati. Hati ibu sungguh pilu, seperti anak, ibu juga bakal mencari esok.Berdua tiada diherankan, tapi bertiga sekarang lain feel nya. Apatah lagi cucu membesar didepan mata.

Esok hari, cucu menangis pilu. Mana tok yang selalu mendukung pagi2? mana maksu yang selalu boring bila dia mula menangis? Mana? Mana? Sepanjang hari menangis, dari pagi sampai malam.Letih menangis, tido, bangun menangis kembali.Baru dia paham, yang dia bukan lagi berada disana, dia disini. Apa kisah dengan tok nya? Mandi basah kah? Makan kenyang kah? Ibu sms pun tak sanggup dijawap. Tok, kami nak ucapkan berbanyak banyak rindu, dan terimakasih atas segala-galanya, terutama bagi pihak ibu. Jasa tok tak dapat kami balas. Ibu sayangggggggg tok muahhhssssssssssss!

Anak, nanti ibu bawa pulang kesana. Sedih macamanapun, tempat kita disisi ayah. Kena ingat ye.
Tok, jangan sedih lagi.kalau tok pilu, kami lagi sayu.
Tapi kami bakal pulang!!!

Reminiscing of 17 years of friendship – 5 May 1991

We started small at our lil SMSJ, we put thru a good result for SPM. We did part-time job at the same mall, We even headed for same university (lain branch aje).Pesal we did get married same day aje kan?We still contact each other, occasional small gathering, brunch, lunch date.
Still remember we have our own ‘buku conteng’? sebuah buku yang digunakan sepenuhnya utk melakarkan coretan hati, keinginan diri, dan cita2?(mana pi buku tu weii?).
Macam budak-budak yang berlagak dewasa aje that time.
But I do not wish that we can turn back time, since we are now able to bide our sorrows and gulp our dilemmas.Apapun, macam manapun,nothing has changed, except we all married.(err, and the pic speak itself hihi)
Thank you for being my true friend for the past 17 years, and more years to come.May Allah s.w.t. bless both of you, in health & good being.
She is Sharifah Muharra Diba & She is Intan Zulaikha
This is for you,
the one person I can let know my soul
Who can relate to me like no other
Who I can laugh with to no extents,
Who I can weep too when times are rough,
Who can help me with the troubles of my life.
Never have you turned your back on me
or told me I wasn’t good enough
or let me down
I don't think you know what that means to me
And I love you for listening
I look up too you because you are strong,
and thoughtful and beautiful.
And I hope you know that I am for all time here
To listen to your laugh and cry and lend a hand
In all the ways that I can
And I will try to be at least half the friend you are
I hope you know I would not be the person I am today, with out you.
HAPPY BELATED 17TH YEARS OF TRUE FRIENDSHIP.

pain pain, go away ...110508

My love, there's only you in my life
The only thing that's right
My first love, you're every breath that I take
You're every step I make

And I, I want to share all my love with you
No one else will do
And your eyes they tell me how much you care
Oh, yes you will always be my endless love

Two hearts, two hearts that beat as one
Our lives have just begun
Forever I'll hold you close in my arms
I can't resist your charms

And love I'll be a fool for you I'm sure
You know I don't mind
'Cause you, you mean the world to me
Oh, I know I found in you my endless love

Oh love
I'll be that fool for you, I'm sure
You will know I don't mind
Oh you know I don't mind [honey I don't mind]
and yes, you'll be the only one
'cause no one can deny this love I have inside
and I'll give it all to you
My love
My love, my love
My endless love

sebab apa saya pakai tudung?

Sebab apa saya(refer diri sendiri la kan) pakai tudung :

1. dapat hidayah frm Allah s.w.t - ini kes mmg anugerah
2. parent suruh - ini kes rela dalam paksa
3. pengaruh rakan sebaya - ini kes mcm tak wujud je zaman ni
4. pengaruh celebrity - aih,ini lagi impossible
5. suami suruh - ini tak leh wat ape dah,kang derhaka namanya
6. tudung sekarang fashionable - lilit,pusing,bunga kembang belakang
7. lindung kepala - malaysia sangatla panas
8. pi kenduri/tahlil/kawan kawin kat masjid - ini selalu tengok
9. "on & off" lagi tak payah cerita la ye (category yang paling popular)

tapikan bila dah pakai, jarang yang menepati ciri2 yang ditetapkan Islam.If tak ketat,sempit sendat, mesti pendek,takpun lutsinar cam x-ray,nampak leher,tudung pun tak labuh. Kat jln tar byk tudung,mcm2 fesyen, tapi mesti ala-ala jarang plak tudung. Sexy you!!




Tau kenapa susah sangat nak ikut?
Sebab kalu ikut rasa macam tak lawa aje, rasa macam muda lagi tunggu tua,sebab nak cari yang cantik tapi panjang/labuh mesti color/corak tak lawa,diri pun rasa kureng glamor.

Actually, tudung nak kena labuh,tutup dada,tutup punggung.
tudung nak kena tebal dan tak nampak biasan leher/bentuk badan atas.
tudung pun nak kena warna yang pudar supaya tidak menarik perhatian.
aiihh, ni belum cakap pasal baju lagi.

PERINGATAN : AURAT MESTI DITUTUP SEMPURNA, SUPAYA DIKENALI SEBAGAI WANITA MUSLIMAH DAN TIDAK DIGANGGU - mentally/physically. (mana ada orang 'ganggu' yang bertutup sempurna, orang tu pun tau malu)

Terpulang, tepuk dada tanya selera. errr, yang menulis ni pun lebih kurang aje. Kurang solehah sikit!

200+ km, 6 month apart

Penat otak pikir, penat badan travel..being his wife is one tough job. We moved few times. After giving birth to junior (bukan!sejak pegnen 8bulan lg)lama dah tak jenguk rumahku disana.Ntah ape cite. Ntah brape byk cicak tinggalkan 'harta', ntah brp byk habuk pun tinggalkn 'i was ere'.
Hubby, kan best umah tu kita leh lipat2 and simpan dlm beg. Mana kita pi,kita bawak. Sure takde la buta2 rumah tu kena tinggal takda orang duduk kan. Entah2 kelapa sawit blakang umah pun dah boleh tuai.

200km is not much, but for him to travel up&down, being weekend husband (father now) is exhausting + poket sengkek sey…while 6 month maybe not long enough for some people, but make me very sick + very lonely without you at my side.

Hubby, I follow you next week ye. It is time to balik, let us be with you. Kesian hubby pagi2 asyik mkn roticanai mamak,tghari ns campur khemah kuning,mlm nasi paprik dkt kedai 25jam tu. Meh kita sama2 makan la pulak heheh..

Tq you for being such an understanding creature, we love & miss you sl from far.
Aiihh, actually im the one missing you so much, itu junior tatau ape pun lagi :)

me,him & junior

reality

Boring boring ku tengok internet,terjumpa lawak ni.Klako!!

Dear IT Support,
Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a slow down in the overall performance, particularly in the flower, gifts and jewellery applications that had operated flawlessly under boyfriend 5.0.

In addition, Husband 1.0 un-installed many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5, but installed undesirable programs such as Formula One 5.0, NBA 3.0 and World Cup 2.0.

And now Conversation 8.0 no longer runs and House Cleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system. I've tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail.

What can I do?
Signed,
Desperate Housewife

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Reply:
Dear Desperate Housewife,

First keep in mind: Boyfriend 5.0 is an entertainment package, while Husband 1.0 is an operating system.

Try entering the command C:\ I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME and download Tears 6.2 to install Guilt 3.0. If all works as designed, Husband 1.0 should then automatically run the applications Jewellery 2.0 and Flowers 3.5.

But remember, overuse can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence2.5, Happy Hour 7.0 or Late Night Teh Tarik 6.1. Late Night 6.1 is a very bad program that will create SnoringLoudly.wavfiles.

Whatever you do, DO NOT install Mother-in-Law 1.0 or reinstall another Boyfriend program. These are not supported applications and will crash Husband 1.0.

In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have a limited memory and cannot learn new applications quickly. You might consider additional software to improve memory and performance. I personally recommend Hot Tasty Food 3.0 and Tongkat Ali 6.9.

Good Luck,
IT Support

kuang kuang kuang.... !!!

hinting & telling

Best friend of mine sent sms earlier. Good content,very deep in meaning.Tks sis,membuatkan diriku terpaku memikirkan.

A women has strengths that amaze men.
She can handle trouble&carry heavy burdens.
She holds happiness, love&opinions.
She smiles when she feels like screaming.
She sings when she feels like crying,
cries when she's happy&laughs when she's afraid.
Her love is unconditional!
There's only one thing wrong with her...
She sometimes forgets what she is worth...

To think back, women worth a world actually. Only to be taken for granted by men. Few friend yang jadi korban 'kezaliman' suami/lelaki. Be it financial-wise to broken heart. Yang paling tak best bila you being abused sebelum kawin. Semuanya you keluar belanja, semuanya you nak kena pikir&plan,even nak mkn mana pun you yg kena plan.Lagi best, you yang paksa2 sidia kawin,aiiiyooooooo melalut meraban dia cari excuses tak cukup tanah.

Friend, if you ever open your heart to what i've been hinting&telling,please la..(even you will never know the existence of blog perasan ni )
not worth him treating you like this,
not worth you waiting, only to be drag year by year.
still if he is the 1 you want,ensure he'll make you queen!!

U know what i mean...i already sms you.

sad & piss off!

phone call,morning - me cried,not believing of what i heard.
Can u hold on dear?Sabar ye.Things will get better,insyallah!

phone call,afternoon - me surprised,friend's hubby called and ask how am i doing.Gile ke?

him being the proud ayah

Never come across my mind that after 7 years of courtship(cintan maut gue and dier @uitm),2 years of marriage baru dpt la si kenit junior.Dah 4 bulan,both keep me very very busy.Luckily senior is not around that much,maklum..perwira negara kan.
Peeps around me, sibuk kata he look alike ayah dia.ku tenung-tenung balik,yela!!especially mata yang bulat,besar dan jarang blink blink.Read somewhere that jenis ini suka memimpin.(ala junior pun nak jadi perwira neg ke?)

The day junior was born,him being the proud ayah is the moment that i never ever forget.dia punya sengeh sampai ke telinga!

For senior & junior,i love you both so much sl.Semoga Allah s.w.t. melindungi dan memberkati kehidupan kita.

Welcome me!

Me,regardless of being a pro-hsewife(err temp ke 4eva ek?dh beranak sorang ni),this is the first ever of entry.orang dah bertahun2 jd blogger,ku baru terhegeh. Thanks to ayah,seeing his effort to subscribe broadband @ home,boleh le ku menceceh and diceceh.From zero to-moro,scribble 3X.No biggie,but atleast something for me to be&get busy.